Thursday, September 01, 2016

Journal Entry #14 - Free me up, from the Fear of Rejection

Abba I pray for peace in my heart and mind. I no longer want to believe in the lies that I am worthless, ugly, and slow. I need (want) you to remind me of who I am in you. When I look at my past I see a girl that has been hurt. A girl that was lonely and invisible. Show me Your love for me. Show me that I belong to you
 3.10.2010


The pain from being rejected still haunts me. My mind is filled with memories of being rejected. There were many times I was called ugly, monkey, slow, made fun of because of my weight and height, I notice that sometimes I would isolate myself from others because I was afraid of being rejected by my peers. What others thought of me, consumed me. I placed more value on what others have said and thought about me then what God says about me, as his child. The Lord has shown me His love and everyday I am learning to lay down the fear of rejection.

Scriptures:

1 Peter 2:9

But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, that you may proclaim the excellencies of him who called you out of darkness into his marvelous light.

Ephesians 1:3-8

All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly realms because we are united with Christ. Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. God decided in advance to adopt us into his own family by bringing us to himself through Jesus Christ. This is what he wanted to do, and it gave him great pleasure. So we praise God for the glorious grace he has poured out on us who belong to his dear Son.[a] He is so rich in kindness and grace that he purchased our freedom with the blood of his Son and forgave our sins. He has showered his kindness on us, along with all wisdom and understanding.

Quotes:

"Rejection isn't just an emotion we feel. It's a message that's sent to the core of who we are, causing us to believe lies about ourselves, others and God. -Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst



What would you say that you fear and why?




Wednesday, August 31, 2016

Keep It Short: Six Words or Less

Lay it down; Fears. Unforgiveness. Anger. 


Tuesday, August 30, 2016

Malawi Mission Trip 2016

Its been two weeks since I have been back in America after being in Africa. I was able to go on a mission trip to Malawi. Since being back, I am still speechless. I can't find the words to explain my experience of being in Africa. The land is beautiful. The people are beautiful. The food is amazing. Some of the things I can take away from being in Malawi:

1) To be grateful.
There were days that we went without running water (could not take showers). I thought to myself that the Malawi people go through this all the time and I still see them praising God.
2) To Pray, Worship and Rejoice always.
I need to make up my mind daily to not let the world fill me up. I saw people walking for hours to get to church and while in church service praising God. I need to daily sit at the Lords feet and be with Him praying. 
3) I can live without social media.
During the trip we did not have much internet and we were okay.
Since being home, I have found myself sitting in silence and meditating on the scriptures.

I would love to go back to Malawi. It was a great time of growth and learning from the Lord.

Enjoy some of the pictures:














Saturday, December 26, 2015

Journal Entry # 13- Confused and Hurting


Abba, You are my love, there is none like You. Right now I feel like hiding and getting away from everything. Tonight I cry out to You and ask You to help me. I'm so lost, confuse, and hurting. Would you take me in Your arms.  What else can I do? What else do I need to go through? I want to let everything go, but I am so scared. I don't know what the future holds for me. Abba, take me and never let me go, Guide me in this life and never leave. Abba, Lover of my soul, please lead and direct my steps. I love You, Let me know that everything will be okay, because right now I am not sure what to do. I lean on You and trust in You. You know all things. I no longer want to trust in myself. Be the center of my life. Please calm my fears. My love, change my heart and mind. Change me from the inside and outside. Use me. Keep me in the apple of Your eyes. Hide me in the shadow of Your wings. My love You are my everything. I love You
11/3/2009




I wrote this during my undergraduate year in college. During this time in my life I wanted to know what I was to do with my life but I was confused because I was busy looking at everyone else's life and comparing theirs to mine. Sometimes I think well I am 27 years old, so that mean I am suppose to have three degrees or I am to be married now. But we all have a story and everyone's life is different. I have learned since that journal entry that I am where I am suppose to be. I continue to seek the Lord and take one day at a time. Enjoying where He has me. 






Saturday, December 19, 2015

Journal Entry # 12 - Frustrated


Abba I feel hopeless, weak and frustrated. I ask that you would help me. Take me and free up my mind of things that are not of You. Direct me,  Help me to remain strong in You. Let my heart always desire to be near to You.


4/10/09

It is good to know that we can be honest with God about how we feel and where we are in life. I have realize that God is patient and understanding. I wrote this journal entry when I was a undergraduate and I was frustrated with life and school. I don't know if the person reading this might have felt the same way. Life can be frustrating but God is always there. I pray you will  meditate daily on His Word.

Philippians 4:6-7
do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


Psalms  119:114
You are my hiding place and my shield; hope in your word.

Psalms  62:8
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. 

Psalms 3:3-4
But you, O Lord, are a shield about me, my glory, and the lifter of my head.
cried aloud to the Lord, and he answered me from his holy hill. 





Sunday, July 12, 2015

C + I Layers this Summer

I am loving the layer necklace at my C + I boutique. There is so many styles and ways you can wear layer necklace. Check it out: 

Marquesas Convertible Pendant Necklace



Mo'orea Convertible Pendant Necklace


Bora Bora Convertible Pendant Necklace



Gardenia Convertible Pendant Necklace



Which layer necklace would you wear?