And we all, with unveiled face,
beholding the glory of the Lord
,are being transformed into the same
image from one degree of glory to another.
For this comes from the Lord
who is the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3:18
A Change of name?????
I have decided to change the title of my blog from Ambassador for Christ to A Lady in the Making. To be honest when I started this blog five years ago, I did not have a meaningful reason to title my blog, "Ambassador for Christ." But now, I am 21 years old and a lot has happen to me last semester in college and even this semester in college, a lot has happen. I believe that God has continued to show me many things in myself and still working on me. It has been brought to my attention that my childhood issues have not been fully worked out. All that I went through still hurts and I have been praying about these issues. I am asking God for His help and seeking help from others. I am praying that God would completely deliver me. So I title this blog, "A Lady in the Making," because of the changes I am going through right now as I write this.
Over a period of weeks I will make changes to my blog.
Quotes from Gladys Aylward "I wasn't God's first choice for what I've done for China…I don't know who it was…It must have been a man…a well-educated man. I don't know what happened. Perhaps he died. Perhaps he wasn't willing…and God looked down…and saw Gladys Aylward…And God said - "Well, she's willing." “If God has called you to China or any other place and you are sure in your own heart, let nothing deter you….Remember, it is God who has called you and it is the same as when He called Moses or Samuel.”
"My heart is full of praise that one so insignificant, uneducated, and ordinary in every way could be used to His glory for the blessing of His people in poor persecuted China."
Its been two weeks since I have been back in America after being in Africa. I was able to go on a mission trip to Malawi. Since being back, I am still speechless. I can't find the words to explain my experience of being in Africa. The land is beautiful. The people are beautiful. The food is amazing. Some of the things I can take away from being in Malawi:
1) To be grateful.
There were days that we went without running water (could not take showers). I thought to myself that the Malawi people go through this all the time and I still see them praising God.
2) To Pray, Worship and Rejoice always.
I need to make up my mind daily to not let the world fill me up. I saw people walking for hours to get to church and while in church service praising God. I need to daily sit at the Lords feet and be with Him praying.
3) I can live without social media.
During the trip we did not have much internet and we were okay.
Since being home, I have found myself sitting in silence and meditating on …
Abba I pray for peace in my heart and mind. I no longer want to believe in the lies that I am worthless, ugly, and slow. I need (want) you to remind me of who I am in you. When I look at my past, I see a girl that has been hurt. A girl that was lonely and invisible. Show me Your love for me. Show me that I belong to you 3.10.2010
The pain from being rejected still haunts me. My mind is filled with memories of being rejected. There were many times I was called ugly, monkey, slow, made fun of because of my weight and height, I notice that sometimes I would isolate myself from others because I was afraid of being rejected by my peers. What others thought of me, consumed me. I placed more value on what others have said and thought about me than what God says about me, as his child. The Lord has shown me His love and every day I am learning to lay down the fear of rejection.
Scriptures: 1 Peter 2:99 But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession,…