And we all, with unveiled face,
beholding the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same
image from one degree of glory to another.
For this comes from the Lord
who is the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3:18
Winter Vacation is Over...Back at College
I feel that this winter break went slow. It is my last year at my current college and I am not sure about how I feel about this being my last year. It seems went by so slow and had its ups and downs. I am thankful that I got this far because I really did not know most days how it would work out. I look forward to this semester because it almost coming to an end. I am praying that this semester want be stressful but I will be relax and accomplish all I need to get done for the Spring semester. I pray that I will grow as I internship at an agency for families, meet new friends and enjoy time with the friends I have now. I pray that I will trust God in the direction He would have for me.
Quotes from Gladys Aylward "I wasn't God's first choice for what I've done for China…I don't know who it was…It must have been a man…a well-educated man. I don't know what happened. Perhaps he died. Perhaps he wasn't willing…and God looked down…and saw Gladys Aylward…And God said - "Well, she's willing." “If God has called you to China or any other place and you are sure in your own heart, let nothing deter you….Remember, it is God who has called you and it is the same as when He called Moses or Samuel.”
"My heart is full of praise that one so insignificant, uneducated, and ordinary in every way could be used to His glory for the blessing of His people in poor persecuted China."
Abba, I have seen abuse and just thinking about it scares me. I don't want to ever be in an abusive relationship. I honestly want to be blessed with a man of God, You have for me that will not hit me. I pray to be with someone who loves me as Christ loves the church...
I fear to be in an abusive relationship. I have noticed that whenever I hear someone raise their voice at me, my heart starts beating fast and I get nervous. I find myself hiding and running from confrontation. I wish I were never around abuse because it has shaped my view of men. As I continue to seek the Lord, he is changing my view of men. I have an understanding of how men and godly men should treat women. Some days are better than others, but I am trusting God with this fear.
What has happened in your past that has shaped your world view?
Abba I pray for peace in my heart and mind. I no longer want to believe in the lies that I am worthless, ugly, and slow. I need (want) you to remind me of who I am in you. When I look at my past, I see a girl that has been hurt. A girl that was lonely and invisible. Show me Your love for me. Show me that I belong to you 3.10.2010
The pain from being rejected still haunts me. My mind is filled with memories of being rejected. There were many times I was called ugly, monkey, slow, made fun of because of my weight and height, I notice that sometimes I would isolate myself from others because I was afraid of being rejected by my peers. What others thought of me, consumed me. I placed more value on what others have said and thought about me than what God says about me, as his child. The Lord has shown me His love and every day I am learning to lay down the fear of rejection.
Scriptures: 1 Peter 2:99 But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession,…