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Is this life or bad luck?

I graduated from Temple University with my Master in Social Work in August of 2013. I been searching for jobs and at this point I have applied to more than 60 jobs. I have been on interview after interview. Last year was tough for me. I moved to a new city where I knew no one, I enrolled in graduated school and I had to complete internship hours in order to graduate on time. But it is not all bad, I like Philly and being here is cool so far. I have a place to rest my head at night and food to eat. I have a church to call my own. I am thankful.

I just recently got a job and still life is tough. I don't think I have ever been this low before or felt embarrassed. Single person, counting nickles and dimes just to get back and forth from work. I feel embarrassed because I have a Masters and I am not working as a Social Worker.  But my mind is at ease that I have a job but every now and then, I feel like I am going to panic. I confess I do cry but once I cry I always feel better. Yes, I am one those people that just need to cry and then I am fine. Right now, I just want to do better and pay my rent on time. It is a struggle that everyone has been through especially when they just graduated from college.

This is a New Year and my goals is learn how to handle my finances. My hope and prayer is to trust in Him and get closer Him.To let go of every situation. To seat at His feet because when life is out of control, my mind races and I am unable to stay still. Last year taught me, I really don't have control over everything.


Cee said…
Hang in there Asia! God will wipe away your tears and give you a testimony that will make all these seem like history... that's what he did for my friend recently.
Ugomma Ukam said…
I can relate to what your facing...but HE'LL TAKE THE PAIN AWAY.
Glad i found your blog!
I hope everything will turn out great for you! It's so touching that you share this with us :) I'm still in college, but I understand why you're worried. God bless you and I hope it will end up fine :) I love your blog btw! xx
Miss TLG said…
Sweetie, it is life trust me. Life hits everyone like that. Do me a favour. Make a long list of the things that make you happy. Do it now. Have the list handy. Trust me it only takes a call or email or visit for things to change. And it can happen. Anytime !!!
Miss TLG said…
It's life dear

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