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Journal Entry # 13- Confused and Hurting


Abba, You are my love, there is none like You. Right now I feel like hiding and getting away from everything. Tonight I cry out to You and ask You to help me. I'm so lost, confuse, and hurting. Would you take me in Your arms.  What else can I do? What else do I need to go through? I want to let everything go, but I am so scared. I don't know what the future holds for me. Abba, take me and never let me go, Guide me in this life and never leave. Abba, Lover of my soul, please lead and direct my steps. I love You, Let me know that everything will be okay, because right now I am not sure what to do. I lean on You and trust in You. You know all things. I no longer want to trust in myself. Be the center of my life. Please calm my fears. My love, change my heart and mind. Change me from the inside and outside. Use me. Keep me in the apple of Your eyes. Hide me in the shadow of Your wings. My love You are my everything. I love You
11/3/2009




I wrote this during my undergraduate year in college. During this time in my life I wanted to know what I was to do with my life but I was confused because I was busy looking at everyone else's life and comparing theirs to mine. Sometimes I think well I am 27 years old, so that mean I am suppose to have three degrees or I am to be married now. But we all have a story and everyone's life is different. I have learned since that journal entry that I am where I am suppose to be. I continue to seek the Lord and take one day at a time. Enjoying where He has me. 






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