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Journal Entry #15 Lord, Stand in the Place of my Dad...

Abba Father, as You know I wrote a letter to my dad and I can't lie I miss him. I wish I had more time with him. I wonder what he could have taught me? I wonder if he would give me away when I'm married? I wonder who would protect me? Protect me from guys? This night I'm hurt as I think about him. I know that You are my Father and I pray that You would stand in the place of my father. Please teach me as a father would teach his daughter.


4/4/10

I really struggled with the death of my dad. I was eight years old when he died of cancer.  I thought about him a lot. I would wonder who would teach me lessons about life or teach me how men are to treat me? I wonder who would protect me? But, I am glad to look to God as my Father. God has been my protector, provider, my friend, my strength, my resting place.

Father...

Provider Matt. 6:26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuab…

Journal Entry #14 - Free me up, from the Fear of Rejection

Abba I pray for peace in my heart and mind. I no longer want to believe in the lies that I am worthless, ugly, and slow. I need (want) you to remind me of who I am in you. When I look at my past I see a girl that has been hurt. A girl that was lonely and invisible. Show me Your love for me. Show me that I belong to you
 3.10.2010

The pain from being rejected still haunts me. My mind is filled with memories of being rejected. There were many times I was called ugly, monkey, slow, made fun of because of my weight and height, I notice that sometimes I would isolate myself from others because I was afraid of being rejected by my peers. What others thought of me, consumed me. I placed more value on what others have said and thought about me then what God says about me, as his child. The Lord has shown me His love and everyday I am learning to lay down the fear of rejection.

Scriptures:
1 Peter 2:99 But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for his own possession, t…

Keep It Short: Six Words or Less

Lay it down; Fears. Bitterness. Anger. 

Malawi Mission Trip 2016

Its been two weeks since I have been back in America after being in Africa. I was able to go on a mission trip to Malawi. Since being back, I am still speechless. I can't find the words to explain my experience of being in Africa. The land is beautiful. The people are beautiful. The food is amazing. Some of the things I can take away from being in Malawi:

1) To be grateful. There were days that we went without running water (could not take showers). I thought to myself that the Malawi people go through this all the time and I still see them praising God. 2) To Pray, Worship and Rejoice always. I need to make up my mind daily to not let the world fill me up. I saw people walking for hours to get to church and while in church service praising God. I need to daily sit at the Lords feet and be with Him praying.  3) I can live without social media. During the trip we did not have much internet and we were okay. Since being home, I have found myself sitting in silence and meditating on …