Journal Entry #21 My fear...

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Abba, I have seen abuse and just thinking about it scares me. I don't want to ever be in an abusive relationship. I honestly want to be blessed with a man of God, You have for me that will not hit me. I pray to be with someone who loves me as Christ loves the church...            
12/11/2010

I fear to be in an abusive relationship. I have noticed that whenever I hear someone raise their voice at me, my heart starts beating fast and I get nervous. I find myself hiding and running from confrontation. I wish I were never around abuse because it has shaped my view of men. As I continue to seek the Lord, he is changing my view of men. I have an understanding of how men and godly men should treat women. Some days are better than others, but I am trusting God with this fear.




What has happened in your past that has shaped your world view?

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